absolutely free

two hospitals in less than a week...a personal record of mine!

for those of you who did not know...my two sisters were confined to different hospitals almost simultaneously! My youngest sister underwent an emergency appendectomy last Wednesday, while my other sister was sick at home with UTI...but not for long...her case became complicated when her platelet slowly went down and was diagnosed with Dengue. They are both fine now, and are at home.

While in the confines of the hospital room, I was pushed into a spiritual confrontation with the Lord. I was questioning the reason behind this spur-of-the-moment-sickness-spree that really shook the whole family up. Finances was low, morale was dwindling and faith was in question. Instead of applying doctrine, or even thinking about applying what I've been teaching, I went into a fit...a spiritual tantrum. Letting arrogance and self pity take control of my emotions and driving every bit of doctrine out of my system! It was exhausting and painful. But at the end of my week long spiritual retreat/hospital hopping expedition...a lot was revealed to me...especially the concept of GRACE and FREEDOM.

We are free to accept and reject grace...and that freedom is what makes our faith and belief strong. When God the Holy Spirit inspired John the Beloved to write the oh-so-famous-verse "For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believes in Him, should not perish but have everlasting life." God made sure that freedom will be enforced. Grace is free to accept...and also free to reject...but of course, every choice we are going to make is coupled with certain consequences.

God can really orchestrate situations in our life with such awesome timing that Grace will still outshine every pain, hurt and confusion. In the end...whether we make good or bad choices...we will realize the we are ABSOLUTELY FREE...