I'm a screw-up

who isn't?

I'm not proud to be a screw-up...but I can't deny the fact that I am a big one! I've made wrong choices that brought pain to myself and others as well. My selfish and arrogant tendencies has even boosted my screwing-up abilities. *deep sigh*

It's hard to have a melancholic personality that thinks a lot and, at the same time, be a major screw-up! It doubles the pain after the act of screwing up...guilt becomes a long haul...a dragging burden! Then...self-pity comes into the picture! *now ain't that great* Instead of quickly recovering from a depressing and self induced state of misery...I let it brew and simmer...wallowing in my own filth...like it would solve anything! *SHEEESH!*

Then after a while...when all hope and dignity has departed my soul...I start putting up a defense mechanism. Trying hard to hide the real condition of my soul with pseudo happiness and false doctrine. Denial becomes a routine that slowly drains reality from my perception! *what a loser*

If you're reading this and somehow, you can relate...I'll be praying for you! I know what it feels like to be cornered by our mistakes with nowhere to run...It's a reality we all have to face and endure at some point. But when we do...I pray that we would not lose hope. Before we reach the point of no return...we have to purposefully undergo a paradigm shift...with whatever strength we have left, we have to divert our perception to a divinely inspired thinking. Understand that being a screw-up is inevitable...it's how we get over that fact that matters most! As a famous saying goes (and I'll reword it a bit) Screw-up seven times, get up eight! *right on!*

In reality...the sinful nature we are innately born with is the source of our screw-ups...It's a predicament that we have to live with...and the only way we can cope is by adhering to someone who was born without this curse. Jesus Christ was sinless...never did sin...never did screw-up...yet gave His life for screw-ups...like me and you!

Don't achieve to be perfect...because you won't and you can't...we'll always be a screw-up! Accept that reality along with the fact that you need someone who is not a screw-up to cover for you...and that's Jesus! Accept Him today as your Lord and Savior...and be a meaningful screw-up! *AMEN...AMEN...AMEN!*