nothing to offer

That's what I feel right now.

I have surrendered my life to God...but never expected this much life altering tests in such short intervals. But then I should have understood that His ways are not my ways and His thoughts are not my thoughts. He has His own timetable...and once we surrender to His ultimate authority, then we are bound to be a part of His vast imagination. Right now, I feel that God has me right where He wants me...helpless and broken.

God was never interested in what we can offer nor in what we can contribute. Compared to His glory, our righteousness will just seriously cramp His style. It's like waxing a Ferrari with honey...it may be sweet and pleasant but it will definitely ruin the car. Sometimes it's better to just give up and let God. I know it's hard...believe me...It's detestable in all aspects! But from where I am now emotionally and spiritually, I have to let God move me.

I'm not bitter nor angry...I'm just exhausted and emotionally drained...but surprisingly happy. So Lord, let's do this...I'm empty and ready!